because today, God wishes to kill us all, so
we would all look up—because a car almost
hits me, and I should be scared, but at most, I feel
thankful—because today it is so pretty as the sky
leaks his all goodness, and I only look forward to
satellites making my wishes come true—because
I would giggle at the irony of using smartphones
to take pictures of the northern lights, so I would do it anyway
and scream “fuck you!!!!!” real loud up to the sky—because if
God was real, he would send down a meteor right now as a joke—because
he is only alive in me as long as I am violent—because today and for many
days later, there will always be sand from this beach in my room—because
it reminds me so much of the first boy I loved, how he lingers, and how he
is always mine—because now that I cry in my sleep, I can feel his giggling,
and at last, I know he has always been here, and for that, I have always been loved.
Khang-“Ninh” Đặng (Đặng Khang Ninh) is a queer Saigonese in progress. Their poetry and music have been scattered worldwide – recognized by Vănguard, Seems, and other creative hubs. They casually jump across waters – between Sài Gòn, Vancouver, Sacramento, and elsewhere. They were a writer-in-residence of Collections of Transience’s 2023-2024 Artist Residency Program. Their cocoons are on Instagram (@dkn_irl) and Facebook (Ninh Khang Đặng).
